Humpty Dumpty

I just feel angry and sad at the moment, I don't know why.
I feel like humpty dumpty, except I keep being repaired only to break again.
I don't know, it just feels like one part of me wants to be this successful adult, and the other just doesn't care, and wants to be a kid playing around all day.
I grew up with nursery rhymes, somehow I feel like the older I get, the more I can relate to those characters.
In all the stories I grew up with though, none ever told me that life would be like this.
It's a roller coaster sure, people say that all the time.
But they never tell you how far the drop is.