Watched The Room last night with my housemate at the local independent theatre. A hilarious movie, especially since it isn't trying to be that. It takes itself so seriously that it ends up being the Citizen Kane of "so bad it's good". My housemate loved it - we both quoted all the iconic lines. We stopped at the gas station on our way home and got candy, just like old times when we'd live a walk away from the gas station, back when we started living together.

Last night had this sense of idyllic peace: a moment captured in a clear plastic pouch, filled with seashells and blue water and floating sparkles. You shake it, and it's full of life. Fullness. Fluidity. Fresh starts.

I'm updating this post to share some highlights of today, further proving that this December, leading into the new year, is shaping up to be my year.

After a tasty and cheap lunch special at a quiet Asian restaurant, where I randomly talked to a woman next to me about anime for 10 minutes (deeply regret not catching her name or Instagram, but still a great moment), I got my housemate's Christmas present as well as an amazing Oreo mousse Nutella overload bubble tea; Jesus, it was death by chocolate. While drinking it, I complimented a woman sitting next to me for her hair; it really shone a lovely colour in the light. I have to share this newfound radiance within me with others, is my philosophy, through little gestures like this.

Got new shoes for a great price and in the style I've been looking for to complete my new outfit, which I must say, suits me very much. All of my wardrobe is thrifted pieces, these days. 
Almost forgot, the face masks I bought from the drugstore which, to my surprise and delight, were 3-for-2 when I brought them to the cashier. Put one on earlier, some hydrating marula and cocoa butter mud mix. Smelled so good. 

Speaking of things that smell good, I just set a wax melt up; "Festive Spice" scent. I have half a mind to buy more wax melts from the brand. I also bought some perfumes online a few hours ago. You might think, "wow, she's a big spender", but it really is just today. I'm normally quite frugal - the thrifted clothes and Cup Noodle containers acting as pen holders prove it. I find ways to save; my recent skincare purchases were all through loyalty points. It's also worth noting that the perfumes are "inspired by" dupes, copying popular scents for a fraction of the price, and they were running a Christmas promo (I got 2 100ml perfumes inspired by Burberry Goddess and Mugler's Alien, and got a free 30ml Eilish dupe). So even on my more expensive days, I look for the best deals. I'll go back to zero-spend days this coming week, so have no fear, poor purse of mine!

Today was awesome. A natural smile fell upon my cheeks for most of it. My life is a little clear plastic pouch, full of shimmer and bursting with brightness. 

I love my quiet life
Of wax melts and writing club
Of coming home to my cat and watering my plant
After my office job in the city
While my latest CD plays on the radio
While soft cream settles on my cheeks
With big plans for the next year
And a full heart beating under warm blankets
I love being a young woman
With her whole life ahead of her.

I love slow days at work. I need the calm after last week's stress.

Thrifted nice jeans and a pretty white blouse for $4.15 total. The jeans were so cheap, just over a dollar. Too bad they are just a size too small! I squeezed into them in hopes of stretching them out; I think it worked a little bit.

I'm unreasonably excited for more markets tomorrow. My father and I are planning to visit 2 local Christmas gift fairs. I want to surprise him with a funny little candlelight that scatters shapes and sparkles all over the room when one puts a tealight candle inside; we've seen it once or twice for sale at other markets and he's always been taken by the sight of it. I have some tealights at home, so we can set it up quickly! As for me, I want soap. I always want soap. Maybe some accessories or funny ornaments, too. 

I rested for the rest of the day and visited my neighbour for mince pies and coffee and chats. Right now, just cuddling the cat while a new CD plays. I've taken, like, half an hour every night to just space out and not focus on any sort of task or device or background noise, just sitting there, letting boredom take over. I've been liking it. The stomach aches weren't so bad today.

The storm rages in sharp violet streaks
Of violence, still black screen shadows
Surrendering the earth to your onslaught
Honed precision, sword aligned

As it strikes, a crack, then the fall
Heaven opens from silver-blue sky
The war will end soon, but not for you
Your arm, it gleams, ready as ever

All run and hide at your harsh gaze
Your tempered edge, your tempest tone
All run past the powdered scent 
Of purple stems reaching out for touch

I wait there for you in the field
Kissed by the rain you bless me with
Your softness drips along my skin
And into your blooming moonflower heart

Potential diagnosis of Crohn's disease. As if I needed that to end the year off with! Well, we'll wait for the biopsy. I'm very tired. The preparation for the scope was exhausting. I just want to sleep for a while. My skin's been looking great lately, at least. My stomach, not so much.

I'm hoping to write something tonight. There are 2 choices for what I can do tomorrow, Saturday:

1. Thrift market
2. Crochet meetup

The crochet meetup will take a lot out of me, since I have to travel. I'm really low after all these procedures, so maybe I should keep it manageable. Then again, the thrift market will be more expensive. I don't *have* to spend money at it, though - but I *will* spend more money and time getting to the crochet group. I'll think about it tonight.

Thursday and Wednesday afternoon and evening, I just remained in bed. You have no idea how tired I am.