Just Chaos

[raileus]

I am always angry about living,
too much suffering has made me more mad,
and from my madness
stands only more anger,
saddled with disappointment.

Life doesn't want me,
but it won't let me go.
People say they care about me, but they leave me alone.
The so called friends don't call.
While everyone else does whatever the hell they want to do,
with no regard for my feelings about it.

It's always do as I say,
never as I do.
The rules don't apply to them,
just me.

And I am left in a hot room on a sleepless night.
Tell me how is any of this alright?
How can a pill fix any of this?

When it seems like I am the only one trying to keep things calm, while
everything around me is just chaos.