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Interview with me

1● What is your astrological sign?

I'm a Pisces ♓ 🐟

2●What animal are you in the Chinese zodiac?

I'm a Tiger 🐅 🐯

3●Do you consider yourself an introvert or an extrovert?

Introvert, although I have been told otherwise. ✨

4●What is your favorite color?

To wear; Black, 🖤
In general; Blue. 💙


5● What is your favorite dish?

Mac and cheese with shrimp. 🍤

6●Are you a coffee or tea person?

Coffee. ☕

7●What is something that everyone around you loves but you hate?

Carrots and I don't know why! 🥕

8●What is your idea of a perfect day?

An extra large garlic shrimp chicken pizza and playing Final fantasy 15 all day. 🍕

9●What is your favorite music genre?

Rock .🔥

10●Which band is your favorite?

Marilyn Manson❤️

11●What is your favorite book?

Sand and Foam by Kahlil Gibran.📚

12●If you could chat with a novel character, who would you pick?

Mad hatter from Alice in wonderland📒

13●Which fictional world would you choose if you could live in any?

Charlie and the chocolate factory comes to mind.🍫

14●If you got a chance to hang out with a video game character, who would it be?

I would hang out with Chloe Price from Life is Strange: Before the storm.🎮

15●What are 3 hobbies that you have?

Writing, Singing karaoke and origami.🎤

16●Do you enjoy drawing?

Yes, I used to draw a lot from comic books I had growing up, particularly; Morbius.
I still doodle now and then.✍️


17●Name one of your favorite TV shows.

Beyond Belief: fact or fiction. 📺

18●Name one of your favorite movies.

Kiss of the dragon with Jet Li.🍿

19●Which horror movie character scares you the most?

The Blob (1958)
It terrifies the heck out of me,
that thing got so massive it started swallowing buildings, and nobody could outrun it. 🎥


20●What, according to you, should be your spirit animal?

Probably a sloth.🦥

21●What is your favorite thing about nature?

Trees,they gave us so much.🌴

22●Do you have any phobias?

I don't think so, but I hate lightning.⚡

23●If you were given a choice to be reborn, what would you choose to come back as?

I would like to be a tree or a star in space. ✨

24●What is one thing that you have always wanted to do but have not done yet?

Riding in a Hot Air Balloon.🎈

25●What would your dream house look like?

A house in a giant willow tree.🌲

26●Name one pet peeve that you have?

Repeating myself, I hate that!😤

28●What is the best advice anyone has ever given you?

There is always a third option.🤔

29● If all of humankind were to do one thing at the same time, what would you like that to be?

Sing "Let It be" by the Beatles. 🎶

30●How would you want your epitaph to be read?

I think something funny and simple like "I was here" or "Just visiting".🪦



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To live in the ways I do not know,

To exist in the ways I do not know,

To die in the ways I do not know,

To escape in the ways I do not know.


To love in the ways I do not know,

To hope in the ways I do not know,

To sleep in the ways I do not know,

To dream in the ways I do not know,

To be in the ways I do not know,

To be,

just be,

with no additional

criteria.



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Who is to know; that which is my own truth?
Who is to say; that which is within my own skin?
What could I give; that is greater than myself?
What part of me; holds weight greater than that of gold?
Who is to blame; if I don't measure up?
What if I am not everything that my dreamer dreamed that I would be?
What risk have I taken to reach myself?
How many more steps can I have?
How many more falls?
What will be the last word I hear?
What will be my last dream within this one?
What will be the last thought I have?
Will I be sad about it in the end?
When I am no longer me, and am weightless?
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What do you say to someone who wants to die?
I've asked this question to many people and doctors, and if I don't get all the usual things like: "It will get better" or "You matter".
They really didn't have much else to say. It's the same with the meaning of life, people just don't know.
Some seek religion or family, others seek to help wherever they can.

It seems like I am the only one who can find out the answer for myself.
Yet I see no path forward, my reality is the same, no pill is gonna change that. I feel as if everything is already set for me, as if it is already written and cannot be changed.

I fight hard not to believe this, I try to believe what they tell me.
That I have control, that I can control how I feel, that I have a destiny.
That I can lead a happy and fulfilling life one day.
I just don't see it, I don't feel it, I don't know how to tell myself that.
I don't know how to tell myself that this is not the end.
To tell myself that there are better days ahead, I feel like I would just be playing pretend.

I don't feel any of it, I feel no value within myself.
Life is just life, I am just here, what else can I say?

(Notes: Something I wrote while in the hospital.)
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You are now entering "The book of the dead."
A place of melancholy and shadows that will encapsulate your mind.

Relinquish your hope, for you enter the grounds of the lost ones; dispirited rejected and forgotten.

Leave your sword and pick up some black roses,

For all is dead, all will die, all will become death again.

..˚⊹. ࣪𓉸 ࣪⊹˚.𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗗 𝗠𝗢𝗥𝗘?˚⊹. ࣪𓉸 ࣪⊹˚.

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𝔗𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔦𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔢 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔤𝔯𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔦𝔰 𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔢 𝔠𝔬𝔪𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔫𝔬𝔦𝔰𝔢 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔩𝔦𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔤.
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For my Rewrite of The last of us Season 2.
𝗖𝗹𝗶𝗰𝗸 𝗛𝗲𝗿𝗲

"The Book of The Dead"
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"Death To Death"
Dark my days,
Dark my nights,
Dark my soul has lost its light.

Dark my dreams,
Dark this being,
Dark its heart now lost its sheen.

Into the nothing,
Into the void,
Into the space,
Now what are you looking for?

Death to thoughts,
and death to dreams,
Death to hope for better things.

Death to me, my and I,
Death to self and things of mine,
Death to pain, anger and hate,
Death to death now there is no escape.
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The storm

Jul. 9th, 2024 06:12 pm
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What am I?
A clock hand set forth?
A storm set for disaster?
A cancer designed to engulf it's corner of the world?

What am I?
A sore upon the foot?
A pain within this body?
A mind simply existing?

What am I?
A broken toy?
A failed experiment?
A fallen angel?
A reminder of death?

What am I?
A light?
A darkness?
Nothing?
Everything?

What am I?

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