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raileusI don't wake up thinking "WOW, it's sure great to be alive."
Or "It's sure great to be six feet above ground."
I use to at least want things, have goals, hopes, dreams, even some small amount of determination.
But now it's just survival, now it's just whatever is gonna keep me alive and from hurting myself basically.
I don't want to do anything but sleep, makes sense since I don't really sleep well anyways. I go days without a good nights rest, and then I crash for a whole day or days at a time.
But even when I do get some sleep, it's hard to want to do anything.
I again can't seem to focus, so that often leads to no movies or music.
Sometimes I can manage playing a game, usually I end up writing, trying to make sense of my mind and reality.
Or "It's sure great to be six feet above ground."
I use to at least want things, have goals, hopes, dreams, even some small amount of determination.
But now it's just survival, now it's just whatever is gonna keep me alive and from hurting myself basically.
I don't want to do anything but sleep, makes sense since I don't really sleep well anyways. I go days without a good nights rest, and then I crash for a whole day or days at a time.
But even when I do get some sleep, it's hard to want to do anything.
I again can't seem to focus, so that often leads to no movies or music.
Sometimes I can manage playing a game, usually I end up writing, trying to make sense of my mind and reality.
