Dark Sleep
Nov. 19th, 2024 11:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raileusHaving Major depression often means sleeping too much or not enough. Insomnia does run in my family, and I've sure had my share of episodes of it.
But lately when I do fall asleep, I've been sleeping so deeply that I am unaware that I am asleep.
Often feeling disoriented when I do wake up and realize that I am awake again.
That kind of "Dead to the world sleep" where you don't dream, where everything just goes dark, real dark.
My headspace has been different, I can't say it's the worst, but I'm not sure it's a good place either.
Everything just feels like I'm quietly preparing to enter another hell.
But lately when I do fall asleep, I've been sleeping so deeply that I am unaware that I am asleep.
Often feeling disoriented when I do wake up and realize that I am awake again.
That kind of "Dead to the world sleep" where you don't dream, where everything just goes dark, real dark.
My headspace has been different, I can't say it's the worst, but I'm not sure it's a good place either.
Everything just feels like I'm quietly preparing to enter another hell.
